What day 1

when did I become huge? Seriously, I wish I could see myself as I look to others. I am giant and gross and not happy. I am exhausted, lazy and tired of being like this. I want to change. I want to eat healthy and think about what I am eating. I want to wake [...]

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When did this happen

Ok, so I am going to be wallowing in self pity this post, so if you don’t want to read it, stop reading now. I have become the mom I never wanted to be. I am overweight, I am tired all the time and my husband has declared that I am not very good at [...]

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Truth be told

I suck at will power.  Can I make that confession?  Do people admit to that?  My life is crazy semi-messy because I can’t say no and I make poor choices. Last night I couldn’t sleep so I woke up and watched Hopkins 24/7 on OWN.  Thank you Oprah, by the way for my real life [...]

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Ah…

(I’ve been doing this post update every few weeks, in between posts I write my thoughts/struggles each day in note format, this seems the most readable way to do this) back to craving oreos, really I think they need to make an oreo detox for me, I am seriously addicted oh and Dr.Pepper too- so [...]

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Debt here I am

Wow income tax refunds and there we are buying things at Lowe’s to fix up the house & also I just bought a few hundred dollars worth of clothes at Lands End for the kids for the spring and for myself. Last week I also bought two air purifers because of my husbands allergies.  My [...]

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today

Today I decided I am really fat.  Grotesquely overweight and I hate it.  Today I realized if I had another fat friend/coworker/neighbor we could get on the next season of biggest loser.  Today my BMI makes me obese.  I never wanted to be the fat person.  My body looks odd, I carry all my weight [...]

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I wish I could

  Wow another week of thinking about debt and diets. Again groceries did me in.  I was over $160 on the weekly shopping trip and then yesterday we went to a store that sells bulk ingredients and I spent $90 that was not accounted for.  I was reading an article today on yahoo about feeding [...]

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digging out with one of those little spoon/straw things

I have my best ideas at night, as I am about to fall asleep and it drives me crazy because most times I write them down, sometimes if I’m tired or fighting a massive respitory infection I don’t and I hate to lose my thoughts.  I wanted to write my weekly update on the diets- [...]

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Christmas Ca-ching

So I just finished charging my husband and son some Christmas gifts that I was’t planning on buying.  Yesterday I ordered my husband some clothes, that he didn’t need if he’d only go through his closet, but instead he just asks me to get hom more.  I don’t even know why I am bothering to [...]

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Hello my name is “not responsible with credit”

Okay this could be the worst week for spending in my whole adult life.  I agreed to a payment plan last week with one of my credit cards.  But in order to get into it they had to charge me last week, three days after I made a payment, needless to say our cash was [...]

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