10 things I got from the NICU

My second child was a preemie. I like to share my thoughts and feelings about this experience to help other who may be going through the same thing. 1.Schedules are cool. I never thought I would get a positive experience from having a NICU baby, but when she came home, she was on a schedule [...]

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10 things pre-eclampsia taught me

May is pre-eclampsia awareness month and as a survivor I want to do all I can to help others be aware of this condition. Here is my list of 10 things pre-eclampsia taught me: 1. Life is not planned. You can prep for a baby all you want and get ready, but when you develop [...]

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What day 1

when did I become huge? Seriously, I wish I could see myself as I look to others. I am giant and gross and not happy. I am exhausted, lazy and tired of being like this. I want to change. I want to eat healthy and think about what I am eating. I want to wake [...]

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trying

Someday’s it’s hard to keep being nice. I try to make conversation, I try to joke, to come up with things to do and nothing. It’s frustrating to feel more like an annoyance than someone special. I feel awful because my time alone when it’s quiet is the best time of the week for me. [...]

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Pics yes please

So I had sever pre-eclampsia and HELLP. My baby was born early, she was whisked off to the NICU and I saw her for all of 5 seconds before they took her away and work on me and my pressure. Like other moms who deliver early for any number of reasons, I did not get [...]

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gone

Dear Nan, It’s been 10 months, 10 months since the ground dropped out from under me. 10 months since you left this world for a better place. I know you are happy and healthy and not in pain. Hopefully you don’t even think about the post-polio issues you spent so many years fighting. I just [...]

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You meant so much to my grandmother and I remember her through you

I love cards. I have always loved cards. I enjoy email and facebook and twitter but nothing makes me happier than getting a hand written card out of the blue.  I also can not begin to tell you how much I love and treasure cards from my husband, cards of sympathy when loved ones are [...]

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Preemie a blessing

When I had my preemie, I would never have thought life would one day get easier and back to normal.  But it does. That first Christmas 3 years ago she was still so tiny, now she’s big for her age and all over the place.  Amazing. What a blessing. When I came home without my [...]

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Holidays- when your parents are divorced

I wish I could say I was super excited about Christmas, but I can’t and I haven’t been for almost a decade, since I started coming home for Christmas again.  My parents divorced when I was 10.  After that Christmas was with all of us still, but at my grandparents house.  Then they both remarried [...]

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missing you

Does it ever get easier when you lose a loved one?  I ask myself this as it is about to come to 7 months since I lost my grandparents, the people who raised me. Is it harder or easier that they both passed within 11 days of each other?  Is it better to take all [...]

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