My children are both acting needy, whiny and over the top today.  Throwing food, complaining all because we came off our usual schedule and some of us went to bed too late last night and dad’s home for the holiday.  I am officially at a point in my life when there is no quiet and there is no peace.  It’s non-stop noise or doing things all day, every day. I clean up after everyone in the house and I just miss me.  I miss my quiet peaceful time to myself.  Becoming the mother of two was such a huge change. 

I’ve been thinking about how I worry about how I am doing and what people are thinking.  I came across a great quote:  You wouldn’t worry so much what people thought of you if you knew how seldom they did. We all know that we think and worry more than we would ever need to and this has really been making me think. 

I also keep seeing how everything about contentment keeps coming my way, as if to almost drive home the message to me, to keep going.  

Learn the great art of doing the best you can with what you have, where you are. This was one of the messages that came across this morning in an email I got.  I guess that’s all there really is to it.  Just realize this is what I am doing now and all I can do right now, so do my best and enjoy it.  Some days it’s just harder to do that with little ones. 

I also read an email newsletter from someone who said never have more than 10 things on your to do list.  At first I thought that’s a lot, I’m no where close to that, then I’ve been noticing lately how much more than that I have sometimes and how stressful it can be. 

I just wish I could have some more time in the day to pursue interests to me. 

I am also back on eating better and exercising, because I think I am gaining too much weight.


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